Scadalous/ Tuesday, January 31
SuMTiMEs i Wunder..wad kinda person i am..and SuMTiMeS i WuNdEr y CeRTaiN tHiNgs HaPpeN..SuMTiMEs i FeeL..0XyM0RoNic..MaYbe we dUnCh Noe MaNi tHiNgs..bUT eVerYtHIng does happen fer a reas0N..sum smile fer tt reason..sum frowns fer tt reason..if by any reason..u're the one frowning..tHiNk Of it ThIS wae..if u're the one smiling..den the other muz be frowning rite??so we learn to share sumtimes..maybe tt smile means more on the other person than u..[=so..maybe i'm not good at decisions..indecisive u call it..but i'm realli tRyiNg behind the closed doors..beyond wad u could see or hear..suMTimes ppl think i'm heartless..or maybe u're the one thinking this wae..sumtimes u think i dun feel a thing..or is nonchalant to u guys..but who has ever realli spared a thought fer me? fer my feelings?!u might bLaMe me fer the state i'm putting u thru..u might blame me fer the pain.. [i noe u dun]but haf u ever thot..i didn't wan these too..i wanted to ease them..but i'm at my wit ends..i dun like to see ppl unhappiee...and all the more..i dun wish to be the cause of any unhappiness..i do things fer a reason..and sumtimes they are right..sumtimes they feel wrong to u..but how am i to judge..who should the happiness belonging to this reason go to?i wish i could..but i can't please everyone..and i can't fight my own NatUre..maybe u saw certain things which will make u sad..maybe u dunnoe wad i'm thinking..but SuMTiMeS..even i lose myself..i dunnoe wad i want..i dunnoe how to face u..i dun even noe how to ...but SuMTiMeS..maybe i'm put in a difficult position too..words unspoken..words unsaid..but it doesn't mean they are not dere..dun assume..cuz i dislike assumption..s0..juz pard0N My NaTuRee..[i'M Not aNgRiEe 0R SaD..JuZ..FeLt LiKEe tHRaShiN SuM tHiNgs OuT..[=..these are my thots for now..or maybe even moree]
indulgence in the wee hrs 0f..
1:17:00 PM
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